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Wow has it ever been hot here in montreal! I've been roasting in my house, it is an unbearable 30 degrees and stuffy like you can't imagine. We've started putting in calls for central air and will hopefully have it installed by the start of next weekend (although some guys are booked until the end of July).

With this crazy heat we haven't 'prepared' any food, too hot to move around the kitchen so we've been eating out like crazy. Since then the scale has been telling me the bad news. Today I must turn this ugliness around!!

Long weekend here I come!!

ahhhhhh... finally Friday
I can almost taste the weekend. 3 whole days of not coming into work. 3 whole days of staying in my pjs as long as I want. 3 whole days with my Josh who's been away on business most of the week. 3 whole days!!! YAY!!
Well, after my mishap the other day (eating like a ravished monster) I am totally under control. Feel fantastic and healthy again, even though my weight hasn't reflected the change just yet. I'm now following the weight watchers 'core' program. I don't really have anything much to lose (lifetime member already) just want to get back to where I was at the beginning of last month and maybe tone up a bit. However, no matter if you are at goal or try to get to goal it is still and always will remain a struggle.
Yesterday I went for a group interview at Weight Watchers. I'm hoping to get a couple of shifts in as a receptionist. I think it will feel good to help people on their journey to getting healthy and it will also help me stay in control of my inner demons.
enough for now,
T

The Endless Pit

OMG! How do I continue to eat so much? Isn't there supposed to be a trigger that tells you when you are full or had enough? Am I triggerless?

This morning I was anxious about my sick dog, starting a conversion course, my husband going away on a trip, and my lack of exercise lately and it put me into an emotional eating binge. I ate soooooo much food within an hour that I'm pretty impressed with myself... yet bewhildered at how I didn't even feel close to full at the end of it.

Afterwards the familiar feelings of guilt, shame and 'damn I'm fat - how am I going to find anything to wear' came out. If anyone reading this does Weightwatchers they will understand when I tell you that I ate a whopping 32 points before 815 am. Thats pretty crazy.

Now to get on with my life. I have a course tonight and after I'm done I'm going to do a little workout session at the house. That should make me feel a teeny wheeny bit better about myself.

O.O.C. (Out of Control)

OMG... I could not control myself this weekend. I was on a total See-Food diet. Everything I could fit into my mouth went in. I felt bad about it, but just continued eating. I feel horribly bloated and gross today and am on a mission to get back on track today.

Today I will be journalling everything that goes into my mouth like a good little WW girl. I will be chugging on so much water that I should be swimming out the front door at 5pm rather then walking. I'm also going to make it my mission to buy a yoga mat today and start pilates tonight or tomorrow morning to make up from not exercising because of my knee.

btw... the uncontrallable eating was very enjoyable yesterday when it came to eating the cheese & chocolate fondue. MMMMMMMMMMMMMM.... yummy!!!

new to the blog

Well here's my first post. Unfortunately right at this moment I don't have much to say, but can't wait to see what this post looks like on my page!
Lets just leave it like this & I'll write a little later